As I sit pondering the heavens and having been illuminated from time to time, line upon line, and precept upon precept I cannot help but wonder of the “marvelous work and wonder” as spoken through the Prophet Joseph Smith and the glorious influence he has had within my life.  The tender mercies of God have touched my heart in many ways, to which has brought much joy and inflicted innumerable pain upon my soul.  The battle between good and evil within the world and within me has torn me into infinite pieces.

My desire to defend my faith in The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints has been a tumultuous task that has proven to be quite a beautiful catastrophe, inducing growth and change – through fervent prayer, and daily repentance- and always remembering and renewing divine covenants.

 In humility I acknowledge God Almighty and my nothingness.  

I am neither alive or dead, I am literally nothing.  I am moldable like clay – transforming within a refiner’s fire.